It seems recently, all I eat in the mornings is bread though this is not such a peculiar trait. It seems the common consensus butter, bread, and coffee are breakfast foods. Always butter too, and always the butter from Hokkaido. I never cared for jams, it seems to complicate what should be so simple.
It started off that I'd buy a baguette from Maruasu and then I'd have it cut up and measured aech slice-- I had named them Juliet, Tessa, Naomi.... then we moved on to fresh bakery bread rather than the convenience store ones, and I decided that actually, I didn't have the patience nor energy to measure my breakfast each and everyone morning. So came a stop to that.
To me, one and three are complete numbers. Two is always half. A part. A building block. I had two slices of bread as breakfast, I believe, then I threw a fit. On another day, I had either two-thirds of melon-pan and upon reflecting on that, I remembered the horrible shape I had left it in, with teethy edges. I then had another fit on the carpet floor.
I now cut up bread, buns, and pastries into four even slices. Just in case. Yesterday, my mom sat across me eating a bun and left it half-eaten-- it wouldn't have been so bad if it was half, actually-- two-thirds eaten, to go peel carrots. I couldn't stand the eyesore and said to her, "Either cut the edges to have it even or finish eating it. Otherwise, I'll eat it." I couldn't stand to let that thing exist. I don't know why that is, I just couldn't.
This past week, I've been readig the works of Akutagawa collected into an anthology. This morning, I was reading his later works. I woke first at four, read a little, fell back asleep, and three hours later, continued reading. I'm unsure what to say on it-- they're suicide notes, basically. Kappa was the first of his workks I chanced upon and it wasn't that I dived into that without context, in fact, it was introduced with fifty pages of a monotonous preface to do just that, but only now does it mean anything to me.
I don't know what else it was I was going to say now. And I'm beginning to have a headache.